Sunny Disposition

Today I sat by the window to try and give myself a sunny disposition. I woke up in the middle of the morning to use the bathroom, I thought those days were behind me but this seems to be the cross I have to bear for a while. I had trouble falling back to sleep and cried in my pillow at 4:30 am because I just wished my eyes would work again. So I’m back to down in the dumps. I know I have so much to be grateful for, but waiting for answers and being immobile strips me of dignity, patience, and just an overall sense of well-being. 

So bring on the sun, I need to kick these down days out of here.